Future

SO. These past few nights have been entirely spent on JUST planning my timetable for the upcoming semester. And it has been nothing but tough. Like I can feel my brain splitting into half from just thinking about what I should take and how many of what I should take.

But it is also cause of planning timetable, it suddenly occurred to me just how plan-less I am for these 4 years. I mean, for one, I just finally like settled for psychology (self assured myself that I didn't make a wrong choice would be a more accurate way of saying it HAHA). Then I went to look at my graduation requirement for psychology. 44MCs of major mods (inclusive of 6 core mods and 1 lab mod), 28MCs of UE and 8MCs of anything. Sounds straightforward enough.

So I cleared 12MCs of major mods (2 stats mods and social psychology) which means I have 5 more core mods to go. My original plan was to finish clearing all my core mods by year 2 sem 2. So that from Year 3 onward, I can focus on just clearing my electives. But guess who decided to screw up on me? Life, who else! HAHAH So I was planning to clear 2 core mods this sem. But Cog and Dev psychology are out cause BOTH clashes with my CL1101E (to clear asian basket) so I'm left with abnormal and bio. But I know from awhile ago that, bio and abnormal both DAMN content heavy (I mean all psychology mods are liddat but especially so for these 2 mods APPARENTLY). So I was actually thinking if I should take both (to stay on my original plan) or take one (to save my brain) and take one elective.

That got me to start exploring the electives which result in this. ↓

"You are welcome. If you were looking for a concise list, here you go (: "

I got really interested in a few electives. They actually really sound really REALLY good. For example, PL3241 (too lazy to type the entire name)?! PL3249?! PL3254 too?! ANDAND PL3252?! So I was like you know what since I need at least 3 electives okay leh I can use them all here (:

But suddenly (legit I don't know from where), I was like but with the current mods that I am planning to take. I really seems like I'm not going anywhere for my degree in terms of specialisation lah. Then I remembered how some of my rag freshies were talking about what kind of route they were already planning to take (one of them already plan until where they going to work wtheck).

Some people would say uni is a place where you find what is really for you in this world. But to me, you need to at least have a general direction if not you would actually be really lost. Which is me now, I actually have zero idea what I want to do when I graduate. Maybe when I go into more electives and core mods, I would finally figure out what I want. But then I will never know > <

They asking too much from me sial lah. I'm mostly the kind that don't like to plan too far in the future because I scared later somewhere in the middle screw up and then I will be lost again. So I generally will like to plan one step at a time. But yea, I guess it's kinda good to know what you want at the end, easier to focus.

Started to consider actually taking up a minor. In life science but I have yet to find someone or even courage to try. Probably will consider taking a mod in Sem 2 to try it out then decide. HAHAH. dammit the uncertainty in all my decisions. DAMMMITT

Hopefully, things will slowly unfold properly and smoothly.