Proud.

Soo.. Today I went for B!oob with Enci whom I'm grateful to have. One, it has been forever since I met her. Two, cause someone backed out on me literally 4 days ago, so without her, I would have to attend the concert alone which would have been really sad):

First thing this woman said to me (literally before even saying hello) was "omg why you wear until so red today!" HAHHAH to be very honest, I didn't realise how red I was until she pointed it out (and then I got really quite self-conscious about it).

"Really quite red today HAHA"

"Greendot"

Met at Buona so that we could eat at Greendot (which is really good like even though it is vegetarian, it is actually really good. GO TRY IT!) And as expected, the food was really REALLY good. Was looking through my insta story then AND I realised that the raggers were also at Buona eating somewhere else (was praying so hard we wouldn't meet HAHA cause not ready to socialise with them outside of the rag context yet).

Anyway, after lunch, we had to go hunting for flowers. Quite amused by how the florist at Buona said that they were out of flowers HAHAH wtheck. But izz okay, we then travelled to Kent Ridge to get my flowers for my darlings. And bless my heart, flowers are so expensive. Too bad I was too lazy to get up early and go get my own flowers and wrap it myself. Would have been cheaper and more flowers per bouquet (?)

 "Rarely do I get a chance to complain about having too many friends. But $46 though."

 

"But okay lah, I'm paying for their pretty wrapping service. The flowers were so pretty!"

Anyway, so we finally got my flowers, we headed to UCC. Was expecting a crowd waiting for doors open but turns out we were early and there were not many people. HAHAH #kiasu But okay, getting early means getting good seats and being able to rest before the concert starts.

"First time at UCC as an audience. Didn't know about this tag system for flowers. Amused."

The show was super SUPER good. Maybe cause I was really actually focusing just on my friends. I was really nice to see them grow so much as a dancer. Especially when I know most of them when they were still contemp dancers and I watched their journey and growth in the street side of dance.

To be honest, I was really not comfortable sitting there watching them cause I felt so out of place. HAHA Like I usually go UCC to dance, to perform, not to watch a performance. I mean one year ago, I was actually willing to give my all and try venture into this spectrum of dance. But I was rejected from Blast. I mean there are many reasons why I was rejected but I'm abit crazy and I tend to blame it on myself and take things very personally. That really made me very.. scared(?) of trying and venturing out of my comfort zone. I used to be quite open in just trying any genres of dance cause it is really fun to learn the little techniques each genre requires. But I lost that courage. I feel like that rejection was so in the face I kind of backed off. I mean of course it also came in the wrong time (when I was actually questioning myself as a dancer even LEL.)

 Okay enough of me yakking on all these nonsense. PHOTOSS

  

"Enci"

Like I said at the start of this post, really thankful that you came with me to this concert. I was really sad how I barely had any friends to ask to go for this together because most of my friends are in the performance itself. ): Thanks for the day. It was tiring yet worth it. Fun fact, she is the first friend out of rag I have met throughout my entire summer.

"Adabel"

So proud of this girl for choreo-ing the contemp item. HAHA Like got a bit de pro only. HAHAHA amazing how we reunited after last seeing each other in Primary school (which was.... 8 years ago?). Really am very proud of you. Though because of your request, I basically spent 70% of my time in the concert filming the performances down.

"Niyin"

Heheh super glad that I have gotten to know this girl better through rag. She is like my role model. She is so versatile as a dancer (ballet, latin and street now WTHECK), also she juggles a million lessons while studying and still get really good results whut even. How is this fair. But was really proud to see her rock the stage. Like so different from the Niyin I know in rag HAHAH. Fun fact, I totally forgot that she was part of rag'16.

"Jianing"

Am actually really proud of this woman. For surviving all her commitments like bruh. S24, Boob and rag. NO GO. But she is the one who has grown so much in dance. And once in a while, she revives my hunger to want to improve in dance. I mean now when you look at her, you wouldn't believe she really only started learning hiphop after JC. Really proud of this woman.

"Zile"

This girl. Really proud of her. Like she actually impressed me on stage. I was quite shock to see how different vibe on stage is now. She used to be a very obvious classical ballet kind of dancer. And then omg she was dancing on stage looking like she has been doing this from since forever. This woman is usually the reason why I feel so shitty about myself. Like I can see her growth and yet when I look at myself, I don't see it in me. She is in literally the CCAs I want to be in (and really one of the biggest blow was when she was accepted into intermediate for synergy). I mean I know she is good and that's why I pitch my progress and skills against her. Nevertheless, I'm still proud of how much she has grew.

"My Darling Rag Choreos."

 

 "Rag'17"

 

Really sorry for being awks around you guys. I don't know why I can't get used to socialising with you outside of rag HAHA. I mean it is just me being me, as usual. But still sorry. I couldn't even look at them in the eye. Watched them walk into the theater but was trying so hard to avoid eye contact.

Anywayyyyy, after the concert and passing my flowers (and notes :P), I left with Enci to finally get my 1-for-1 Starbucks. Paid using my SB card and ERMAIGAWD. I then realised how much I have spent just on starbucks this summer. WTHECK.

"Close to $50. I'm crazy."

OKK, time for me to rest and recharge. Maybe cause too long never go out. Now a few hours, I'm going to die already HEH.